lock the door.

By boreyou

this thing has taken on it’s own life. i suppose. i don’t know who’s who. it might just be one person going on, or maybe a few people actually still reading this and responding. quite curious. have at it. maybe if the latter is the case then you try the whole blog thing for yourselves and feel free to post a link here. then you’d have more autonomy. but if not, it’s fine here.



so what has it been, it feels like a year, but probably only a couple of months. i guess since i’m writing this an update is in order.


nothing happened


without going back and reading where i left off, ini moved away, i stopped teaching and went back home, and myself and my other are working things out. things are good, and everything seems to be moving in the proper directions. but i still think of her and what might have been. my feelings are no less true in hindsight, but i don’t look back out of habit. proximity and all of the other things i mentioned before were all true. i hold on to the idea that it was more than just a one sided thing, that we had real feelings and real things happening, but way too much in the way to make way for anything to really happen. so i’m home and making art and happy.



good luck out there.

8 Responses to “lock the door.”

  1. busy joeleggs Says:

    I will stick around until you ask me to leave.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6PlrR14QIgM

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iamxFLp_gSs

  2. wedding reception Says:

    wedding reception party brought to you by the ringnecks-

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gj5dBRcLQtQ

    me, the corny girlfriend volunteers to be DJ at the reception-

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_PyAfHggV1s

    looks like the young party animals had a little too much to drink-

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hDfInPlbIbg

    Is that you sexy Joe making your way to the dance floor? I can’t see from way over here but it sure seems like it is getting hot in here. Look at these videos I took of him getting ready for the big dance contest coming up soon-

    salsa
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ox2fPRwY3po

    mambo

  3. the return Says:

    Welcome back. How was your time away with the teaching? I think that taking a little trip to enjoy some nature before winter time might be a nice idea. Feeling the warmth of the sunshine for just a few more moments. Sounds good doesn’t it?

    What do you mean by “lock the door”? Is that some new computer lingo? I don’t think I would get that much out of having such a view.

    Remember when I menioned the girlfriend hadn’t yet emailed me a response back? Well, she still hasn’t. And it has been a very long time. She might have been alluding ’bout something but that would mean she would have skipped over some important steps.

  4. blog hater Says:

    Yep, this cheap internet connection fails me too often.

    It still is more entertaining and interesting than tv.,

    so I will keep it. But I am not really a fan of reaching

    out to others via blog. It is ok for the avoidance of

    intrusive communications. Keeping others at a distance.

    Sharing general bullshit with the world.

    You shouldn’t feel bad being around those other “happy”

    couples. Gag, gag. Not often have I witnessed other

    couples who always get along or stick it out. Too many

    compromise to avoid being alone. Being single always has

    a loneliness to it, even when surrounded by others. Try

    living in this town.

    I don’t know what’s up with her. Does she prefer

    outerspace to substance? All I can figure is she has no

    interest on any level, she has other commitments, or

    maybe just has better things to do. I’ve tried tossing

    simple ideas in the air, but she never grabs ahold. The

    freaking ball is sitting there on her side of the court

    and I just wish she would do something (anything) with

    the damn thing. Silly. O’h well, she must not like returning emails.

  5. VELCRO BIRD Says:

    hey joey -

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VWXnbIMqCow

    and here I am your one and only “velcro baby”.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z2RnGRQEJCA&NR=1

    it ain’t gonna be like that joe. There you go.

  6. one ring requests Says:

    ok ok ok
    so what was that first song? i remember. perfect days for being outdoors!

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zQE9rLCvQOM

  7. blue joe Says:

    Hey Joe,
    Still waiting for that email.

    Joe gets a little bored, tries to share his flower pictures and finally.. I know where he is coming from with those cagey time blues. I feel you Joe.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h8jjLWQ6tKQ

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mP038IAdyc8

  8. saviour Says:

    http://www.planetout.com/hot_topics/2009/06/are-lesbians-afraid-to-look-at-each-other.html

    That was a really good blog entry/comments which only just scratches the surface for how bad it gets. Well anyway, that person that showed up in my dream so long ago (just a dream then and not yet a delusion) shot one of those smiling looks at me during that dream that only lasted for a second. The person in my dream was not someone who I recognized or knew in the dream or in real life. Just a complete stranger who walked up out of the blue, got right up in my face, smiled and did one of those looks into the eyes that can’t be broken off and went all the way inside of me. I got so upset that I woke up and that there weren’t even any words exchanged. What shocked me so much about it was that the person came out of no where when I was at one of my fav places, and how they boldly got that close to me when I didn’t even know them. The nerve! But then ….

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