this thing has taken on it’s own life. i suppose. i don’t know who’s who. it might just be one person going on, or maybe a few people actually still reading this and responding. quite curious. have at it. maybe if the latter is the case then you try the whole blog thing for yourselves and feel free to post a link here. then you’d have more autonomy. but if not, it’s fine here.
so what has it been, it feels like a year, but probably only a couple of months. i guess since i’m writing this an update is in order.
nothing happened
without going back and reading where i left off, ini moved away, i stopped teaching and went back home, and myself and my other are working things out. things are good, and everything seems to be moving in the proper directions. but i still think of her and what might have been. my feelings are no less true in hindsight, but i don’t look back out of habit. proximity and all of the other things i mentioned before were all true. i hold on to the idea that it was more than just a one sided thing, that we had real feelings and real things happening, but way too much in the way to make way for anything to really happen. so i’m home and making art and happy.
good luck out there.
September 23, 2009 at 8:18 am |
I will stick around until you ask me to leave.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6PlrR14QIgM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iamxFLp_gSs
September 24, 2009 at 10:03 am |
wedding reception party brought to you by the ringnecks-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gj5dBRcLQtQ
me, the corny girlfriend volunteers to be DJ at the reception-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_PyAfHggV1s
looks like the young party animals had a little too much to drink-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hDfInPlbIbg
Is that you sexy Joe making your way to the dance floor? I can’t see from way over here but it sure seems like it is getting hot in here. Look at these videos I took of him getting ready for the big dance contest coming up soon-
salsa
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ox2fPRwY3po
mambo
September 28, 2009 at 9:51 am |
Welcome back. How was your time away with the teaching? I think that taking a little trip to enjoy some nature before winter time might be a nice idea. Feeling the warmth of the sunshine for just a few more moments. Sounds good doesn’t it?
What do you mean by “lock the door”? Is that some new computer lingo? I don’t think I would get that much out of having such a view.
Remember when I menioned the girlfriend hadn’t yet emailed me a response back? Well, she still hasn’t. And it has been a very long time. She might have been alluding ’bout something but that would mean she would have skipped over some important steps.
October 1, 2009 at 2:20 pm |
Yep, this cheap internet connection fails me too often.
It still is more entertaining and interesting than tv.,
so I will keep it. But I am not really a fan of reaching
out to others via blog. It is ok for the avoidance of
intrusive communications. Keeping others at a distance.
Sharing general bullshit with the world.
You shouldn’t feel bad being around those other “happy”
couples. Gag, gag. Not often have I witnessed other
couples who always get along or stick it out. Too many
compromise to avoid being alone. Being single always has
a loneliness to it, even when surrounded by others. Try
living in this town.
I don’t know what’s up with her. Does she prefer
outerspace to substance? All I can figure is she has no
interest on any level, she has other commitments, or
maybe just has better things to do. I’ve tried tossing
simple ideas in the air, but she never grabs ahold. The
freaking ball is sitting there on her side of the court
and I just wish she would do something (anything) with
the damn thing. Silly. O’h well, she must not like returning emails.
October 11, 2009 at 11:30 am |
hey joey -
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VWXnbIMqCow
and here I am your one and only “velcro baby”.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z2RnGRQEJCA&NR=1
it ain’t gonna be like that joe. There you go.
October 20, 2009 at 9:05 am |
ok ok ok
so what was that first song? i remember. perfect days for being outdoors!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zQE9rLCvQOM
November 18, 2009 at 12:12 pm |
Hey Joe,
Still waiting for that email.
Joe gets a little bored, tries to share his flower pictures and finally.. I know where he is coming from with those cagey time blues. I feel you Joe.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h8jjLWQ6tKQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mP038IAdyc8
November 23, 2009 at 3:18 pm |
http://www.planetout.com/hot_topics/2009/06/are-lesbians-afraid-to-look-at-each-other.html
That was a really good blog entry/comments which only just scratches the surface for how bad it gets. Well anyway, that person that showed up in my dream so long ago (just a dream then and not yet a delusion) shot one of those smiling looks at me during that dream that only lasted for a second. The person in my dream was not someone who I recognized or knew in the dream or in real life. Just a complete stranger who walked up out of the blue, got right up in my face, smiled and did one of those looks into the eyes that can’t be broken off and went all the way inside of me. I got so upset that I woke up and that there weren’t even any words exchanged. What shocked me so much about it was that the person came out of no where when I was at one of my fav places, and how they boldly got that close to me when I didn’t even know them. The nerve! But then ….